me and him forever

I'm soooooooo in love with him.. I don't regret a thing.

Last Day

Ok, so I am at school right now.. and it's my last day here!! It's sad but fun too. I didn't get to go to all of 1st block and only half of 2nd. I am in 4th block, which is English, and I have a wopping 12 mins left.. then I have to go to B-ham and drove off Caroline, pack all my stuff tonight, fun.. well anywho... I <3 Chris B. and Matt is madd sexxy!!!!

Entering the unknown...

So if you didn't know, tomorrow is my last day at school, I am leaving Alabama on Thursday morning. I am soooo going to miss all my friends, and I don't really have much else to say. I am leaving everything I know, my friends adn my first love. I don't know what else to do. I'm really going to miss everybody in a different way, and if you write me I promise I will write you back. I love you all, in different ways of course.
Love you,
Kimmy

a song stuck in my head for him...

Of all the things I've believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
It feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,
[Chorus:]
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it's not right
[Chorus]
And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time
[Chorus x2]
And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star

Feelings...

How does it feel to know your everything I need? But you don't know it? If your reading this you know who I am talking about. I really want him (Yes, Ava I WANT HIM!!)I saw him last night and it made me realize how much I want him. And the thought of moving now kinda makes me upset because even if I would hook up with him I wouldn't be able to keep the relationship because of distance. I want to be in a relationship with him again sooooo bad!! I still love him after five years! I know... and Av I'm still not going to tell him.

Quote

"A face is a mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking, confess the secrets of the heart."

-Me

Escape

How would it feel to know that you could just pack your stuff up and leave everything you once knew behind you and travel into the unknown? Would you like it or would you not attempt it at all? Life is full of choices, and even the tiny ones we make one day, effect us for the rest of our lives. The people you decide to hang out with affect you, the people you chose not to hang with still affect you. I've learend to take things more lightly and not let the little things get to me. When I have a bad day, I think about my escape, when I am done with High School, I just wanna travel with my friends and have NO plan... this probally doesnt make a lotta sense to anybody.. but I understand it all..

Losing my best friend...

I don't know what happened between us, it's not like it happened all of the sudden either. Over a period of time, him and I just stopped talking so much, and now we never talk, it makes me really upset. I miss him. Eric and I were so close, but now it's almost like we are strangers... I don't even know if he is coming to my going away party, I really want him to, because if he's not there it won't mean alot to me. I love him.

Time goes by...

Does anyone ever notice how quickly time seems to go by? I still think of how just yesterday I was still a little kid thinking boys had cooties.. and everything else. Am I scared to grow up? What am I scared of? Sometimes it seems like time travels sooo quickly and I just stand still, most times I don't even notice that time has passed. Because in the time it passes we are too consumed on how we look, and who we are dating that we don't sit down and take the time to spend with the ones who we really love and love us...maybe we all just need to reconsider what is important to us...

First Loves...

How can you get over something that never really began?? Easy, you can't. I guess our first loves are the hardest to get over, especially if he didn't love you the way you loved him. Is there really an easy way to move on and put him (or her) in the past? Well, your not supposed to forget about them,but your not supposed to harp over them either. But if they hurt you it's supposed to be easier to get over them,... right? Not always, I never got over my "first love" but will I ever??

Barbie's new start...

Mmk,
So I am about to move, and I am really excited and a little scared... we are suppost to be moving to Vine Grove, Kentucky (which is right next to Fort Knox) I will miss all of my friends.. but at the same time I am ready to get rid of some of them (If I like you then you know if I will miss you, on the other hand you know if I don't) The grading system up there is crazy! You don't have to take like the graduation exams.. oh well, we shall see how things will go....I was talking to my dad today because I heard you could get married at age 15, he said that was only with your parents permission, (bummer, huh?) but did you know that at age 16 you can go get married,.. my dad's reply to that? "Bye!" lol.. useless facts... well ttyl!
Love ya,
Kimmy